Christmas was ok.  Different, but not bad.  I spent a lot of time just hanging out with my family, especially my sister, brother in law and brother.  We don’t get to do that too much so it was nice.

Purchasing gifts was fun this year, but somehow not like it usually is.  I always relish the idea of finding something really good for my loved ones.  I still got to do that, but it just wasn’t as exciting as it usually is.  I guess it was because I didn’t get to pick something out for Gregg that I knew he would really love.

Of course receiving presents is always fun too, but the one you get from your husband is always the most anticipated…and I didn’t get to have that this year.

I thought about him a lot.  We talked about him a lot.  My parents still put up his Christmas stocking because they just couldn’t bear it not being there. 

After Christmas I drove back to Wisconsin to celebrate with Gregg’s family too.  I got to have Gary and Bev, Dan and Michele and little Morgen over for dinner and presents.

I’m so glad we got to do that.  It helped to make it feel a little more normal.  Plus just being around the happiness and wonder of a small child lifts everybody’s spirits.

I hope that in time, I as well as Gregg’s family will be able to see it as Morgen’s First Christmas, rather than the first one without Gregg.